I wish I could think straight but I can’t. It takes me forever to recover from a phone call from him that I don’t understand. He forgave me but no matter what it’s too late,it doesn’t matter cuz nothing will ever change. He and I won’t get to live the happily ever after we wanted together. And forever it will be my fault. I’m nineteen years old. I have a slight case of OCD, I might be bipolar, I have an insane temper,and most of all I’m clinically depressed and suicidal. I contemplated cutting today just to have some form of relief from the pain,some relief from the heartbreak I’m enduring every single day. There are days when I don’t want to get up. Those days are the worst. I ask god every night to bless me with the strength to carry on each day cuz I can’t do it anymore, I can’t be strong anymore. It takes sooo much out of me. Nobody understands,nobody thinks how I feel matters. They all tell me to get over it, stop being so sad, he’s not worth it and all this other shit but what they don’t understand was that I had my happily ever after,my prince,my knight in shining armor,my soulmate,my other half and I threw it all away on a stupid mistake,a mistake I can never take back. They don’t understand the pain I’m in every day. They don’t see the pain in my eyes, the pain hidden behind a smile that isn’t real. They don’t see it nor do they want to. I want help but more than likely I want to die so the pain just goes away. So I don’t have to wake up another day and realize that my fairy tale ended. That I don’t have to wake up another day and realize he’s not around….

I AM

I am a poet writing of my pain

I am a person living a life of shame

I am your daughter hiding my depression

I am your sister making a good impression

I am your friend acting like I’m fine

I  an a wisher wishing this life weren’t mine

I am a girl who thinks of suicide

I am a teenager pushing her tears aside

I am a student who doesn’t have a clue

I am the girl sitting next to you

I am the one asking you to care

I am your best friend hoping you’ll be there

The Hunger Games on set

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House of: Bravery, Chivalry, and Courageousness
Gryffindor corresponds roughly with the element of fire.
Possible Zodiac Sign/s: Aries (Taurus and Leo)

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